ROAD TRIP

Part 3
Last part I finally got up on the Wake Board great times. That's it for the this Road






Didn't have my camera on phone on me when I was the beach so we didn't shoot I only took a a few pictures here is the best one.

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Highlights from Saturday on the lake
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Burke and I try to learn how to Wake Skate it was terribly hard lol I never actually made it up. I was really demoralized by shut it down for the day after that. Did not go in the water that night!













That was it for day 1

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Footage from Friday it was a great weekend and its still not over too much film to post it all at once so will take you threw it little at a time. I never been camping or boarding on a boat, there is a 1st time for everything it was so fun. Defiantly a weekend to remember.

Introducing the ROAD TRIP SERIRES
Part 1

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It was Judgment day for a lot of people final roster cuts. Some of my friends did not make the teams they were trying out for. I feel for them because it is not a pleasant feeling, knowing something we've all worked hard for has been taken away in a blink of an eye. Similar to the business world the higher you go the fewer positions there are. Decisions are not always made on talent level but rather who you know, or who knows you. So many other logistics come into play what is your salary, age, injuries... It's a beautiful game but a shitty business, one thing I know that it is only threw failure that you grow. Try to take the positives and learn from it, for it will make you a better person in the long run. You are not alone it happens to everyone at some point in time in their career, some are just sooner than later. When one door closes another one opens so my fellow players there is nothing to hang you head about. As a matter of fact be proud of your accomplishments not many are willing to make the sacrifices to get to the top level. My hat goes off to all of you, God has a plan and story for everyone one of us. KEEP ON' wherever life may take you.

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I know what a lot of you are wondering what I am on... This guy is going crazy, never seen this side of me. To be honest I haven't either, I see the world in a different light. For so long I've done everything by the book, work relationships, chasing my dream. Conformed to society expectations and norms and for what? Only for someone to tell me I can't have what I want? To wake up and say  I hate my job I don't want to go to work? To watch the girl you love pack her bags and walk out the door? Is this life? Do what's expected of you and don't get rewarded! I felt trapped in this on going circle of life brainwashed, well no more every impulse and urge that I have will be brought to life. Am I living life or is life living me?  My good friend Bobby P  near to his death bed going for open heart surgery for a third time. 8 heart attacks and he is still chasing his dream at 75. A man with many talents still unknown to the world it breaks my heart. He said he would call me this weekend I don't even know if he will make it. The last thing he told me today is that "even if he fails he is still a winner because he never gave up! LOSERS give up and I'm not that never never give up Sammy" I know he will make it because he is a fighter. What I'm getting at is I'm doing things my way and even if you don't get it now you will later. I'm not crazy just walking blind into the abyss places where few choose to go because of fear or because of people's opinions. I'm not afraid anymore because I know Victory is on the horizon and it may not even be football!

On side note great day of training no filming today THE NATION series wont have many post because we can't give away the all the secrets. No worries I have lots of  other ideas YOU ARE NOW TUNED INTO THE U!

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These videos blogs are not enough! I may be happy while I'm training but at night I'm utterly pissed off ranging in my mind, this was supposed to be my year! I was lied to made false promises that I was going be given a chance to compete for a starting job and I wasn't even invited to training camp. I'm trying to be positive but it's so hard, it's a constant battle 24hrs a day.  I'm always there to listen to my friends but who is there to listen to me? No one can really understand the mental stress. I'm at my breaking point I keep telling God I can't handle anymore of this, but he keeps putting it on my plate. I poured my heart out for this game with no return yet. Can you see the hunger? Can you see I want it? Only if they let me get on the field I would be a top player! Politics of the game... If I give up now then all of this means nothing everything I sacrificed overs the years will have been for nothing. The fire burns deep so hear my war cry NEVER DIEEEEEEEEEEEE I"M TOO STRONG, I'M TOO STUBBORN!

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Live from THE NATION earlier today

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Closing Chapter

Last segments of cleaning up the old place before I give up the keys







Not a highlight video but it had to be done reality tv at its finest lolol - U-BATT TV

AFTER HOURS

I was planning to stay home to night but it was Lee's birthday! He is a great friend of mine even though I went I out I did not have any drinks just had a great time with good people. SAM-I-AM AFTER HOURS series I apologize there is any swearing but I just cannot control everyone enjoy!

Closing Chapter

Closing the Chapter on my 1st place out here in Edmonton live there for 2 years good times and bad times wouldn't change it for the world.

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Into to THE NATION building back up the momentum can't stop won't stop! BOWWWW

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I woke up today unmotivated, uninspired I willed my way out of bed and jumped in the car. Driving to THE NATION I asked myself where do I get the energy to keep going? Where does this motivation come from? I didn't have the answer then... It was only upon getting to THE NATION mid way threw the workout I realized.

It's a mind set despite everything that's happened I still remain. I  didn't fail I NEVER FAILED! I know everything that is happening is happening just the way its supposed to. It only fuels the fire awakening the sleeping monster within, that lies in everyone one of us. It only comes out after traumatic experiences where you feel you cannot take it anymore and something has to give. So I'm sorry I have to change otherwise I will go insane staying the same. Growth is needed it's time to evolve. 


EVOLUTION

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Why would I quit now? No girl, no kids, not many friends out here, no distractions, I didn't get what I want. It would be easier to if I got my ass beat all over the field, but when you haven't even stepped on the field I don't have enough reasons to hang em up. I'm not getting my shot and it pisses me off. Slow to anger it takes so much to truly get me mad. Calm on the outside but raging on the inside. What makes me mad is that my teammates know I can play I get nothing but love from vets and young players, but still no love from the organization. When I train I'm so mad it's unreal I haven't hit this point of anger in a while, turn on lights on and ill show you what I'm about! KEEP ON'

The Lost Blogs

The Lost Blog series the missing months from Feburary - May where I was writing but chose not to post because I felt it was too personal. As these feelings pass I choose to share it now because truth be told someone is going threw this and I no longer care what others think it's from the heart so it can't be bad. I've met 5 or 6 guys out here in Edmonton going threw the same thing as we speak. It will fill in the missing gap of where my mind was at during those months.





Written February 4th, 2010

The road back seems darker than ever so many uncertainties about life makes it tough to focus.  I would rather not talk about this but it must be done. My girlfriend broke up with me! I won't

say it came as total surprise I could feel her distancing herself away from me over the past few weeks. I will try not to go into too much detail but I know she wasn't happy inside. I always told her that she has to be more selfish at times and devote more time to herself rather than other people. Giving her my honest advice I never thought it would result in her leaving me. The hardest part is waking up and coming home because we did live together and you get used to seeing someone and all of sudden they are not there.  It was love at first sight we knew we were supposed to be together, everything happened so fast maybe too fast... I admit at first I felt a little overwhelmed seeing her all the time and just wanted some time for myself, maybe its at that point that point for her now who knows. When I first met her I saw something special in her not somebody who had already made it and successful, but someone full of hopes and dreams to be somebody. We said we were going to do it together. I showed her how to believe, trust and love, and she showed me how to enjoy life. eat properly, and open up. Also, she helped me through a real low point in my life where I really all most gave up on myself. Different from most breaks up it's ending fairly decent I've put no resistance to fight despite whats really going on in my mind. We have always be honest with each other and told the truth even when neither wanted to hear it. She maintains that she still loves me but in a different way  whatever that means. Even though it hurts terribly I must let her leave and grow into that successful person I know she is. There is no guarantees she will be back, she probably wont be!

I was really looking forward to this Valentine's to be with someone I love and happy for once. Ever since my first relation ship in grade 6 I knew this day was going to be a problem. Even though it was puppy love my girlfriend at the time left me the day before Valentine's only to have me watch her spend it with another guy on the playground how awful! It happened again in university though it wasn't the day before it was pretty close. It's been two weeks since we broke up now but once again no Valentine. I've never had someone to spend this day with. So once again my Valentine is me May you spend a happy day with the person you love and appreciate it because some people are not as fortunate.

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3rd Time's A Charm (Rookie Camp Day 3)

Nightmares all night multiple dreams of things just being taken from me set the day up how it was going to go. Paranoid all day I just had that feeling this wasn't my day. Sure enough it wasn't shortly after practice I was released. I wasn't really surprised I did not get any repetitions at safety, the position I was trying out for. It became clear that I was just a body for camp, it was written before I even laced up my cleats. Oh well you live and you learn it sure wasn't for my lack of effort.  I failed but my head is high I have a lot of things to think about. The 3rd time wasn't a charm more like a repeat but much faster. It leaves a real bitter taste in mouth so I'm going to wash it out with a drink and go outside.

3rd Time's A Charm (Rookie Camp Day 2)

Overall it was a pretty good day i'm a little upset the way 1 on 1's went today I performed below what I know i'm capable of so that's what has me upset. Press coverage is much harder than playing off,  though we worked the technique of  press with 1 hand I used 2. A little more mental focus and better technique should be a better day tomorrow. Other than that is was a solid day took reps at Safety and Corner no assignment errors just minor adjustment. Veterans players start to roll into the facilities, it was nice to see some familiar faces welcoming me back. I'm sore today my threshold for pain has decreased significantly and things that used to never really hurt do now. It will probably take me some time to get used to banging my body around. That's the feeling to live for you know that you put out you maximum effort the day, hard work always pays off. Were back at it tomorrow for the final day of rookie camp before the vets come. 1 more day to knock to rust off and go full steam ahead.

3rd Time's A Charm (Rookie Camp Day 1)

Once dead to the world I never felt so alive as i do now! Could barely sleep last night waiting for this day to come. Filled with mixed emotions headed to Commonwealth it was a glorious day. It felt so good just to be putting my cleats on knowing I'm going to practice rather than out the field alone. Rookie camp is nothing new to me its my 3rd time I know exactly what to expect. I'm working on getting better everyday and helping the younger guys understand the defence. The game feels a lot slower than what I remember, maybe its because I am in better shape or that I'm not thinking and just playing football. I think its a little of both! We are back at it tomorrow 9:00 AM so I will have to keep it short I am refreshing myself with the playbook. Have a great night!